before you leave give me a chance

have i helped you
you know back in the day
the day where u had that look or no return
well now its your turn
u want in my life
you gotta help me
have patience
it'll take a bit
but i hear u gotta dig
dig through the tears
dig through the silence
i want you to find who you are looking for
im here
im just hiding
hiding from what u can give me
i feel it but im fighting
happiness can be something i dont allow myself to feel
happiness is wat makes vulnerability

please i take this time to ask u to help me
you probably will never see this
but this is all i have
my voice doesnt work

my voice only allows me to seem stronge
asking for your help wouldnt be stronge
it wont feel stronge
it wont seem stronge

before you leave give me a chance

thank you

so some one told me tonight that im not that close with you guys
but i am i will always be that close to you
no matter how much space may have grown between us and no matter how many different roads we have all gone down you allways be the friends i never thought i would meet
i will never forget the bond i saw created between you guys
u may say it was never there
you my say its not there now
but i will be the one to tell you it is and always will there
something that stronge will never break
i will alway be the one to believe in it...
i will be the one in 40 years to show you the pictures
the moments captured

i love you all with all my heart
i say some awful things about LA
but right now i will tell u i never truly mean them
the only true thing is that my time here could not have been better with out you all
you have made these past fours years the most meaningful they could have ever been

so that person was wrong
i cheerish the times i have had
i want to say i saw them all
but what i mean is ive lived it all
ive smiled more through these 4 years then i have ever smiled in my entire life
you all have added a treasure to my life

youve shown me love
youve shown me compasion
youve shown me humor
youve shown me obsession
youve shown me happiness
youve shown me true friendship
endless friendship which i will carry with me where ever i go
and what i will look for in anyone i will let into my life next

i want to say thank you
i want to say many other things but i dont know how to put them to words

but manly you have all shown me how to laugh for real and smile from my heart

im done

if you know me then u know ive said this a million times
but today im done
my plan for the rest of this year(school year/summer year)
is to work and pass high school after that im gone for as much as i can
i leav this weekend for san fran and then i work and go to as many museums as i can for fucking thorpe my science teacher to get that fucking grade up and i some how teach my self all the geometry i ahve slack on and then i graduate
after which i work for all of june and maybe part of july
from there i plan to be gone!
i will go somewhere in july i will get out i will say good bye to those who ahve made the last 5 years of my life the best that i coudl ever imagine
i leave and say a goodbye i need so badly right now
one could call this running but its all i can think of
i eed the ext chapter i need to knwo who i can become
im in a rut that i feel i can get out of but am not trying hard enough
maybe i'll even throw in my license there
watever i can do to get out
im done crying
im done dreaming

im not gonna watch people leave one by one
im going to leave
im gonna be the one to say good bye for once


there will be many more where this came from
but here a rant for the night

perfect lyircs

I’m sick, you’re tired, let’s dance
Break to love make lust I know it isn’t
I’m sick, you’re tired, let’s dance
Cold as numbers but let’s dance

As though it were easy for you to lead me
I could be passive gracefully

Half the horizon’s gone for a skyline of numbers
Half the horizon’s gone we’re working the numbers
‘till I’m sick

Sleep don’t pacify us until
Daybreak sky lights up the grid we live in
Dizzy when we talk so fast
Fields of numbers streaming past

I wish we were farmers, I wish we knew how
To grow sweet potatoes and milk cows
I wish we were lovers, but it's for the best

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,
Where is the love?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,
Who here is in line for a raise?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,
Where is the love?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,

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