things are comming to a close

what do u do when you havea crush on someone who has already crushed you
what do u do when the person whos disiplining you never needed any disipline
what do u d o when regardless of those things everything else is going really well
youve set out a plan for yourself and its acaully folding out regardless of the flaws you take with you
im supposed to want to savor theses last moments
and i am at least im forcing myself to but all i really want to do is get out
all this savoring is really just pissing me off
im an observer and now im starting to feel like im jsut observing everyone around me trying to savor everything
maybe its bc im really done
maybe i dont need as much time as everyone else
my mind lives in the past
but my heart lives in the future
whats left of me in the present

a part of my heart though is in the past
and that where i feel like running all over again

and my mind whos in the future
is constantly being beat on thrown in the gutter

to anyone who tries to keep up with this blog im regret not writing in it more consitantly
but its been a wierd couple of months
everything is comming to its final close
and i dont know what i think

but i do finally know where im living and wat school im going to
so the foundations are there
now i can analyze as i always do
so this blog is officially up and running again for this tortured artist that i like to call myself
but for now excuse me as i vacuum and dust for the guests that are me and my mother