finally finals

finals are comming up and im acaully starting to be worried... funny though i was worried about graduating.
ya a couple days ago i wasnt graduating.. but now my counsler informs me i am
should ffeel good but becuase of i now have to do alot more work.
latley though i dont mind work so much becuase it allows me a distraction
a distration from my constant shifting life
think at this point ive gone with the flow so much ive acaully lost my flow
on one side its nice im on my own i love being on my own.. my own rules




finals arent only for school...
ever since people started talking about me turning 18 all theses thoughts started rushing to me head...
ive allways prayed for the day i turn 18
18 is teh day i truly no longer have the burden to call my grandmother.. the grandmother whos caused the fight between families
18 is the day my father can no longer make e feel guilty
as much as those moment were painful they were a part of me.. a part of me which is gone now...